Inalillahhhiwainallahirojiiunnn

Assalamualaikum :(

6.4.2015 umi pergi tinggalkan kami. Mula mula dengar macam tak percaya. She just told me on abi's birthday 4.4.2015, she will be fine after this. No more oxygen. She heard about my school transfer.

And she is very happy as i dont need to transfer so far from new house. She saw my new house picture. How's i arrange things and stuff. She said on May she will stay with us.

Tapi Allah dah lagi sayangkan umi. Malam tu aku dengan Moja singgah rumah nenek, she looks sick. We thought that one was a very normal chemo effect. I kissed her hand she just nod without open the eye. We went back. We talked about house warming once she's there.

Pagi tu aku baru je masuk tempat baru. Baru duduk duduk, tiba tiba.... Moja datang. He said umi dah takde. Macam tak cayaa sangat sangat. We went back and.... Yes she's there, in front of others. Tskk.

Nenek cerita pagi tu abi balik masjid. Kejut umi solat she can't wake up. But still breathing. Then abi mengaji sambil sedih. Nenek tanya kenapa abi cakap umi tak nak bangun. Nenek pegang tangan umi ajar Allah Allah umi ikut. Tak lama lepas tu she leave us, forever.

Inalillahiwainalillahirojiuun..

Rindu. Itu je yang aku susah nak tahan. I used to talk a lot with her. She really honest. Mom kan what u expect? Dia laa yang paling sayang aku dalam dunia ni, i can tell. Sangat rindu.

Tapi aku redha. Syukur sepanjang masa yang Allah pinjamkan umi. Kasih sayang dia tak boleh nak describe dah. Umi, akak rinduu...

Harini cuti. I did lot of house chores. Kalo umi ada dia akan cakap "dah la pegi rehat jap" harini takdee sapa cakap camtu. So aku buat keja dari tengah hari sampai petang. Penat, nak rehat terlupa sebab dah takde umi ingatkan. Rinduuu..

Mohon doakan umi tenang kat sana. I know she scared for be alone, but umi i know u not alone there. U are very good for every people. InshaAllah Allah will give you the best there. I always see your smile umi.

Okk orang dah datang nak kenduri. Byeee. Salam.